Monday, July 30, 2012

Relentless Love

It's Monday afternoon, 
I open up this blog post with absolutely nothing in particular to post or write about.
Although I am on a "blog break" I know that today I want to post something,
Something...anything... I don't know what. I'm just going to write.
Last night I lay awake on the sofa, trying for the life of me to fall asleep,
after being woken up (as usual) by my daughters climbing into my bed.
And I talked out loud to God, something to the effect of this~
God, I'm asking for your help. 
All those things that my mind wants to care about,
that really don't matter, 
help me to let go of them.
All those things that bother me for no reason at all,
 help me to give those things to you. 
Lord, I need to rely on YOUR peace and grace 
to make it through each day.
Help me to stop being such a freak.
(and I probably threw in a "I'm just sayin...")
I need you God. To help. 
Just help me.

Not a real intellectual prayer. It was your basic 
"Call on me in your day of trouble" prayer.
You know, the same one prayed by most people...
the only one prayed by most people.
Yet, whether or not we talk to Him every day,
or call on him ONLY when we are in trouble,
He is still there. Pursuing our love.
That's what he is all about. Love.
Relentless Love.

I'm at a point in my life where I feel pretty confident in my relationship 
with God. If you knew all those things buried deep inside of me that he has 
had to dig out over and over again, you would know my confidence 
does not come from my own "good behavior" or "good attitude."
But my confidence comes from knowing who HE is.
As much as I screw up over and over...where I used to back away from his mercy and love...
Instead I now fall into his grace to carry me through this next stretch of my life.
of my year, my week, my day...
His grace is sufficient for me, His strength is made perfect
in my weakness~2 Corinthians 12:9
That is what grace is all about. To HELP ME be strong, when I am weak.
Not only to take the rap for me. But to give me his strength when I need it.
I am so thankful that he has opened my eyes to this. 
It's become an amazing source of comfort
knowing I can never push him so far away where he doesn't want me anymore.
My confidence in his love for me is never shaken, no matter what I've done...
what attitude I've carried, nor how many times I've failed him.
His love still pursues ME. I can't believe it. It chases ME!!
Yet, at the same time, I can believe it , because that is who God is.
Relentless Love.

So many times in my past, I pulled away when life got "iffy" 
but in the back of my head,
or deep in my heart, he was chasing me down...
What he should have done was smack me across the face a few times,
grab me by the shirt and said "Julie!!! Listen Up Girl!! Hello Mcfly!! I'm here!!
Not to embarrass you, shame you! But to redeem you!!
Ask me for help!! Please, just ask."
He wants us to want his help.
He tells us to call on him, to knock, to seek, to ask him for anything....
It's the old "I want you to want me" scenario...
but as much as his Relentless Love pursues our love in return,
it's so that HE can help us. It's selfless.
That's what the cross was all about.
It was the ultimate example of a man pursuing his bride.
The "I will never give you up, bail on you, embarrass you...
I love you so much I would die for you" love.
And he did.

Today, I'm just thankful. Thankful that I truly believe from this point in my life
and on to the rest, I will always be fully assured in his Love.
And I know I can always go to him, and simply say 
"God. I need your help today. I screwed up. I have no will power. 
Gonna hafta rely on yours...mmmm..k?"
I had no intention today on writing a "christian-y, inpirational" type of post.
I opened this post up, like I said, and just told myself, 
I am going to start typing...we'll see what comes out.

Apparently I am not the only one that needs to hear this over and over again.
Somebody else needs a reminder that no matter what you've done or
gone through, God is grabbing you by the shirt and telling you "I'm here!! Hello!!"
He is still there pursuing your love with his Relentless Love.


Michelle said...

Thanks, I needed to hear that today!!! I really did <3

Mandee said...

I love reading your posts. It always seems that God is talking through you to me a lot. I pray daily and just really talk to God. Sometimes it is more than once a day. It is so nice to find someone like you who is so open and I really hope I can be there. Things are hard right now. This is the first time in my life that God has not given me a job, when the job I have leaves my life. I have been unemployed since Jan and cannot figure out why God has not placed a job in my life to provide for me and my family. I just have to remember that he has a plan for me.

nthecity said...

This is beautiful. I love it so much.

Dawn said...

That was beautiful!! Thank you so much for posting it. My heart has felt His pursuit and heard His call. I'm working on letting Him catch me. Thank you for the reminder.

susan@thishappymom said...

Loved this. thank you for sharing your heart because I needed to hear this!

Andiepants said...

Loved this...thank you so much. Many times I worry about those things that do not really matter much in life. I want to let go of them because they eat at my soul. This is a good reminder to just pray and love yourself because if you listen He will lead the way :)

Andie's Traveling Pants

Brooke said...

Love, love, love this. Thank you. I'm Brooke, I wanted to introduce myself. Thank you for these words.


TicoTina said...

I'm glad you are still using this for posting when you need to. I always love how you do your pictures, as you know. love your heart =)

Pocketful Of Dreams said...

Following from the GFC Hop. I think it is important that we be reminded often that God loves us, because it can be so easy to look at all the bad things going on around us and let it pull us down and make us feel alone in this world. So many horrible things have happened this year in our small town, but all things God knew and held in His hands... and all things work together to the good of those who love him.


Ruby S said...

New fan from GFC blog hop!
Girlfriends Are Like Shoes
You have a beautiful blog, Julie!

AMY PALMER said...

love the quote about being beloved by God. Have the word beloved in a tattoo!


Peace!...with 2 fingers ;) said...

Great post. Awesome message. Brought a big smile.

Peace!...with 2 fingers;)

Rachel said...

This is so true. Only for me, it's not only that I CAN say "I need your help today" but it's that I NEED to say that, to recognize that, because when I forget that I need Him, and blunder on in my own strength, things just go bad. I need God's help every day, but in Him I can find joy and peace and contentment! Hurray! He's awesome.

Angela said...

Thank you for being so open, honest, and pure. That is always inspiring. Thank you for cohosting the hop, glad I found you and am following of course :)

Amanda said...

You funny, sarcastic Christian. I like you! I am your newest follower over from the blog hop. Hope you have a great week.

Pamela said...

Hey fellow co-hoster - I am already a follower but thought I would stop by to say hey.

Kayla said...

I needed that for sure!! There is just so much going on right now and it seems like life just keeps getting harder and worse, but its because I am not asking God for help. I just assume things will work out on its own but it just gets worse. So thanks for the reminder! :)

BeaumontGirl said...

So glad I found your blog!!!!! I love that your name is Julie baby girl's name is Juliana Marie!!! Following you via the hop!

Natalie Stigers said...

Following you now from the GFC blog hop! Your blog is wonderful!! I can't wait to read more and more! :)

Come check me out if you will. :D

- Natalie Rose

Kristen said...

LOVE your have such cute kiddies!! Come see mine...I followed u on each of your social outlets over on your left sidebar...come return the favor??

Have a great day!


Joy Foucault said...

This is beautifully written Julie. So many times I wonder if we can be so distant or "bad" that God will throw up his hands. I know I have been there and always feel like I come crawling back begging to be forgiven. Funny part is even though I know I need to ask for forgiveness, I don't have to beg. Great to know that God always is willing to accept us when we don't accept ourselves or feel like we just aren't exactly where we are supposed to be.

Elisabeth @ La Vita e Bella said...

for not having something to post about, this is great. i especially love the concept of defining yourself boldly as one who is beloved of god. if only everyone could realize the truth of that , their true identity.

and sometimes laying awake late at night is my favorite way to chat with God.

just found your blog and excited to be your newest follower!
p.s. drop by and say hi @

Kristina said...

Participating in the GFC Blog Hop for the first time! I'm your newest fan. :) Please follow back


Mary said...

I think it's awesome that we have help, because seriously, there is no way I could do this alone. Glad to hear someone admit we all need help sometimes...well...all the time! Newest Follower, Nice to meet you!

Noel Scofield said...

I love hearing what was in your heart Julie. Truly, His LOVE is amazing, steady and unchanging. Still praying this break fills you to overflowing.

Nicole Buckingham said...

You know for a bloggy break post that was pretty amazing, that writing you did there. =)

Stopping by to say "hi" and follow ya from the GFC hop. If you're up for a bit of a ride come join me at we're riding the wave of life one little adventure at a time.


Motivated Mommy of two said...

This is a great post, thanks for sharing. I am your newest follower from the GFC blog hop

Anonymous said...

Thank you so much for posting this! It's so easy to forget who we are in Christ Jesus! I needed this today! :)

Danielle @ Healing the Heaviness

Helen said...

Crying my little eyes out! You have NO idea how much I needed this. In fact you will, I'm about to e-mail you :)

ginanorma said...

He will not RELENT until He has it ALL (misty edwards) and then there is the David Crowder song too, so so good, and I adore that first quote OMY!!! Exactly exactly exactly. I hope you know that God is the God of possible, when we feel defeated, it won't happen over night, or even in months, but i've seen some answers after 6 years of praying straight for certain things, yes 6 years, just seeing answers now. Trust God's timing and He is holding you the whole way, don't stop seeking you faithful daughter you!


Brooke @ Covered in Grace said...

Beautiful, Julie!
This was just beautiful.

I pinned your feet picture. ;)

And I love your new header.

Hope you're doing good girl!
Xxo <--I mean that!

amberlynjo said...

love your blog! i am a new follower. check out mine if you like:)

Misty Marie said...

Love this post! Found you through covered in grace! Thanks for posting!
New Follower! Misty @

Misty Marie said...

Love this post! Found you through covered in grace! Thanks for posting!
New Follower! Misty @

Erin said...

Beautiful words by a beautiful soul.

alex said...

I really like the effects on your photos(:

Brittany said...

Beautiful post! So glad to have found you through Chasing Kite Tails :) Subscribing now!

Sue said...

This is a very encouraging site. I am glad I found you. Your posts are an inspiration. Thank you.

Mom of A and a said...

would you consider linking this to the Mommy Brain Mixer? Here's the link in case you're interested:

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