I miss blogging. I knew when I said goodbye back in early May it would be hard to stay away. I wasn't sure if it would be forever or not.
I was pretty sure it would be through the summer and possibly through the fall. I like blogging. I'm able to share a part of me I've never had the opportunity to share with anyone before, because I always felt like who would listen. Who was I? Ya know?
I love that this great big gigantic world of passionate online (mostly) women who connect and share pieces of their lives and loves and passion and joys and sorrows and life stories! And if you are not a blogger, wow, its way bigger than you can imagine. It's not just about me, even though it is my online journal, of sorts.
The community in it and the friendships I've made are what I miss a lot. I feel sad popping on twitter now and then seeing friendships being built and people connecting and making plans and starting amazing new projects and I'm left feeling so "out of the loop." I don't know if it's jealousy or not, but I'm trying to keep my heart in the right place throughout this process and not jump into my blog full steam ahead just because I'm losing my blog mojo. I'm trusting that if I am obedient to what I feel God is asking of me, when the time is right, this sort of quiet season will bring me so much further in whatever God has for me than me pushing and promoting myself or my blog ever could.
The community in it and the friendships I've made are what I miss a lot. I feel sad popping on twitter now and then seeing friendships being built and people connecting and making plans and starting amazing new projects and I'm left feeling so "out of the loop." I don't know if it's jealousy or not, but I'm trying to keep my heart in the right place throughout this process and not jump into my blog full steam ahead just because I'm losing my blog mojo. I'm trusting that if I am obedient to what I feel God is asking of me, when the time is right, this sort of quiet season will bring me so much further in whatever God has for me than me pushing and promoting myself or my blog ever could.
Anyways, I just had to say it. I do miss it. I think thats obvious. It's been a little more of a struggle to keep my fingers off the keyboard lately. But each time I've sat down I've found myself saying "Just hold on a minute' or "Just a second, ok?" one too many times to my kids or husband and they only have a few weeks left before school, plus Leila will be starting preschool this fall, so I know this:
I want to be fully present in this remaining month... with them and with my time with the Lord.
It's vital.
I want to be fully present in this remaining month... with them and with my time with the Lord.
It's vital.
On a side note, this song has been my go-to song lately every time I hop the car!
It keeps me going !
It keeps me going !
To be everything I am passionate about and moving forward because of it!
I wanna soar with You, Upon wings like eagles
But I'll crawl with You too, When the dark and lonely questions come
I wanna stand true, No matter what's new or comes through
I can't stand still, Whatever hits I'll keep making movements to You
But I'll crawl with You too, When the dark and lonely questions come
I wanna stand true, No matter what's new or comes through
I can't stand still, Whatever hits I'll keep making movements to You
I'm running fast and free to You, 'Cos You are the movement and fight in me
I'm running fast and free to You, 'Cos You are my home where I wanna be
Come move in me, Where I wanna be, come move in me
I wanna float with you, The currents driving me
But I'll paddle hard too, When the waves and rapids overcome
I wanna stand firm, When my mind's weak and my emotions squirm
I must stand true, Whatever hits I'll keep making movements to You
I won't walk away, won't walk away...
(Rend Collective Experiment)
I press on to reach the end of the race, and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus,
is calling us. Phillipians 3:14
3 comments:
I've felt some of these same things as life has taken me away from blogging more than I'd like it to lately. But I'm proud of you for pressing into what God's asking of you right now, and you are so right...during this quiet time a bit away from the blogging world you are being given so much that will benefit not only you, but so many of us once you're back here with us. Plus you've got some other great things happening, like that speaking engagement you're doing...that's just a different opportunity to share yourself with others...Luv ya!
I feel like I'm right where you are, Julie. Life through most of the spring and now through the summer was busy, busy, busy, and I left blogging behind as I tried to manage everything else that was going on. I feel like I've missed so much, like I'm standing solo on the side of the blogging highway.
I don't know where exactly I go from here. I want more passion and more involvement but I also want more quiet and more simple living. I'm not really sure what I'll be doing, but I'm always here for you! I miss you and hope you're doing well, and however the Lord shapes your blogging journey from here, I'll be cheering you on and praying for you.
I am going to miss you but it's totally cool. In fact I am going to be doing that soon too because I want to enjoy my last moments with James before school starts and to get adjusted to my new schelde.
Keep it up though. Enjoy the life you have now and don't worry about the blog, it will always be here. Your free time with them isn't.
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