Monday, June 17, 2013

I Blogged After Six Weeks...Just In Case

Hi Friends!
It's been about six weeks or so since I said "goodbye." I went on my blog "break" hoping for a revelation of clarity and peace. Really, it's a slow process in my still very busy life, despite the fact that I haven't exactly been  'internet' friendly. I've learned there are two kinds of busy. There is the type of busy that keeps you physically exhausted. You have a to do list a mile long and you over plan and over commit yourself. Or you are like me, in which your mind is busy all the time. You can't stop thinking and processing and like I mentioned in my last post, once the silence hits, you have to find something to fill you find something to do, to read, to tweet, to blog, to stalk, to watch on television, etc.
My goal was to try to silence my mind, thus the shutting down of my personal facebook a few months back, my blog temporarily, and I really haven't stepped foot into our office space, other than a few errands I had to do for my church and would make a quick pop into twitter or my "blog" facebook page to let you all know what I was up to. But school is out for the summer, so that quiet time I was hoping to embrace has been a little slower than I had hoped for, because well, I'm still busy. It's a process... And each day is a new day, in which some days I wake up and I sit up in my bed, I grab my Bible, I grab a pen, my journal and a devotional and I just read and listen and write. That's all. I just sit and talk to God. I don't grab my phone and scroll through my email and my instagram. I sit. But other days, I wake up to a kid asking me for a cup or breakfast or to figure out the computer printer and there is no quiet time, my day has begun and before I know it, it's over...and I never got a chance to just sit. Those days disappoint me.

But I can see a light at the end of a noisy tunnel. At least I'm learning.

And in the middle of all the seemingly unavoidable busyness and chaos that makes up my life, I have still tried to embrace a bit of creativity that still stirs in me. I've taken up drawing, started playing with an art journal, turning our basement into a play room with some fun paint, handdrawn typography, outdoor fun chalk art with the kids... None of it by any means is "good" in my eyes, I'd barely say mediocre, yet I want to challenge myself to pursue something creative each day even if it's horrible, because I can only get better. 
At least I hope so...
And a first for me, it looks as if I might be speaking at a women's breakfast at our church. Believe it or not, in a family of preachers and musicians, I'm the quiet one. Or so it seems. I like to help, but staying "behind the scenes" is where I prefer. So this is scary for me. I've done a bit of acting in the past, but I always make sure I have a microphone with a headset, because my hands shake and I look like an idiot. So yeah, if this happens, it's a big step for me, but I'm excited, because God has taught me so much, and I'm excited to share it beyond the internet.

Anyways, as of right now, my plan is to come back to my blog in a more relaxed manner at some point. Possibly in the fall? And I've been putting this off, in order to decide if it matters or not. But I decided I would go ahead and throw it out there. I have no idea what is happening with the whole "google reader/google friend connect" thing. But I would so appreciate it, if you are a true reader of my blog and you have drawn any inspiration from anything I've said, I'd love if you would go ahead and hop on my bloglovin train and follow me there...just in case. Or even via email.
I realize many of you follow along via facebook or twitter, but if not I'd love to, well... not lose you.

And I know many of you currently follow along on instagram, so you are fairly updated with my life on a "daily" basis (not that it's that exciting), but if you don't and would like to, you can find me at awkwardtoart .
I still share my thoughts and inspiration as it comes to me there, just in shorter forms!

I have fun keeping up with a ton of you on instagram and my occasional twitter visits...
and I so look foward to hopping back into the "bloggers life" sometime in the near future. 
I do really miss it and miss you all...


Falen @ Upward Not Inward said...

I was excited to see you posted! Your Instagram feed is just beautiful.

How exciting to speak at your church!! I hope it all works out and you get up there and rock it! Hope you share it. I'll be prayin for ya!

Upward Not Inward

Cody Doll said...

I am glad you came back for an update. Have fun out there. I will be probably taking a break in July...maybe.

Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird said...

Thank you for the update, I was so excited to see your post in my reader! I've missed you!

Brooke @ Covered in Grace said...

Girl, we are two peas in a pod.. I am doing the same sorts of things. I can't keep up with my mind..there is way too much going on in there. Ha! Looking forward to hearing about the church breakfast! MUAH!

mare ball said...

I get the 'what am I doing w/ this blog?' thing. There are times when the inspiration is high, and times when it doesn't seem important. I think it's good to take a break now and then and see what your priorities are. Spending time w/ God should always be first anyway. :-)

Lori Petty said...

I love your Instagram pictures, looking forward for your upcoming posts. You look amazing in blue.


TicoTina said...

what the heck, I don't know how I missed this... wait, it was in June, so I guess I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off. anyway, glad I saw your tweet a bit ago about the post after this one, which I am off to read now =)

looking forward to your relaxed return!

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