Monday, January 7, 2013

My Word for 2013 is...

I pretty much have avoided even contemplating a "New Years Resolution" because I usually
 don't have much else I feel the need to resolve other than my workout habits, and generally fail at those.
Instead I decided, like many do, on a word I wanted to sum up my year, 2013, because this year,
I feel there are a lot of things I can adjust, not that anything in my life is crazy out of order.
This, in fact, is the first in many years that I actually feel satisfied at where I am and comfortable in my own skin.
But this is the problem. I am comfortable. Everyone is comfortable. 

Ok, not everyone, but a good percentage of people do things they are comfortable with...
I mentioned in my last post that I am a procrastinator. And to be honest, although there are plenty of 
Type A's out there who may gasp as I say this, I am actually quite comfortable with
being a procrastinator. I really work quite well under pressure. Better actually.
I have always been comfortable (for the most part) with my exercise and diet habits because I work out just enough to keep myself fairly petite and I eat small portions to keep the regime going, as well.
The problem with this is that this past year I grew extremely & abnormally fatigued and tired, 
only to find out I was anemic, and the anemia is due to a bleeding ulcer.
None of this is good. I do need to change my diet and I want to be strong, not just thin.
I want to kick your butt. Ok, not yours, but if someone were to cross me, 
I want to have the ability to kick their butt.
I've always been a prayer & a worshiper. Meaning I verbally talk to God.
I have conversations with Him on a daily basis, 
I  cry to Him, I thank Him, I tell Him I love him...but I have been so comfortable with that, that I forget sometimes to open up my Bible and just let him speak to me. Or just be silent...
I have been trusting enough in my marriage that things are going well. No massive fights, 
or no awkward silence. We talk well, laugh a lot. So I am comfortable, but so comfortable that I forget passion and romance and date nights! Oh how I miss date nights!
I definitely have some things with my children I need to step up, I'm not even going to pretend that I have been comfortable with it. Everything from teeth brushing to eating better to discipline to homework to playing with them. It all needs adjusting. 
But I have been too comfortable with me to be uncomfortable with my family, I guess?
We all have things that we settle for, whether its our finances, our marriages, our families, our relationship with God, our health, our bad habits or past addictions, our attitudes, the way we treat others or perhaps they way we are treated. We get used to being how we are.

So my word for this year is
I want to try harder to not be so easy on myself. To push myself to write more, be romance more,
to love harder, to be healthier, to break old habits, to have another baby...
All this makes me uncomfortable. Anything that requires effort has the possibility for failure, for hurt, for loss. But on the upside it has the possibility for success, peace, energy and more happiness than we can imagine! 
There is so much more positive than negative.
I want to be uncomfortable working out an extra 5 minutes. I want to be uncomfortable waking up earlier to read my Bible. I want to be uncomfortable going from person to person to person getting rejected trying to find a babysitter so my husband and I can have some alone time. I want to be uncomfortable attempting to write a book in which I have no idea where to start. I want to eat gross things because it's better for me. I want to let go of hurt feelings that I got used to & simply settled.
 I want to help others & be a friend even when I feel too tired or sad myself. I want to be more involved in my kids lives. I want to hear more from God. I want to be quiet...
Whatever makes me uncomfortable, I want it. 
I want to be comfortable with being uncomfortable.


TicoTina said...

love it, my friend! funny, because I have been feeling very much the same way!!! I have very much avoided things that made me uncomfortable/inconvenienced for a little while now and it's definitely not good in many ways... time to exercise our spiritual and physical muscles and self-discipline! *yaaaaaay* >_<

Sherry Clarke said...

Ah, I like it! Especially the part about being a good friend or mother even when you're tired or busy. I am working on that one put aside my trivial desires to give care and comfort to others. Thanks for an inspiring post!

Lisa Elle said...

Love this! And totally agree =)
In those areas where you become uncomfortable, God will meet you and grow you =)
And as always, your family is beautiful and funny ;)
Miss you friend!

The Pink Growl said...

Love that first picture of you! You look gorgeous!

Jessica Jean-Marie said...

Wow! This is an awesome post & really, just what I needed to hear. I'm in the same place. I've gotten too comfortable where I am & this post hit me right in the heart, lol. Inspiring would be an understatement!

{ Jessica }

Desirae @ Going with the Flow said...

Love this post! And you are so pretty!

Shane Prather said...

I LOVE this! Untraditional for sure, but it makes complete sense!

xo Shane

Brittany T. said...

you're so inspiring julie! you remind me to be OK with being uncomfortable..all of these things you want to do, outside of your comfort zone makes perfect sense..i want to grow as a person too and GOd can help us..and sure makes him happy to see us stretching ourselves. i *LOVE when you said you want to reach out and be a friend even if you are feeling tired or sad. That one hits home!!

Jess Judkins said...

your word should be beautiful, because you are beautiful from the inside out

Anonymous said...

Hello. And Bye.

Mandi Lacy-Hulse said...

Wow! Cup check! So totally relate.


Laurel Martinez said...

I love it! Absolutely great word - my word is freedom - freedom from thinking to much, freedom from what others think, freedom from the need for control and perfection!

Anonymous said...

This is such a great word to pick! I love reading these heart felt posts from you :)

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